The Disappearing Room
At night beneath the sheet my scattered legs
turn into yours. Dream’s a moth with singeing wings.
Hearts are caves that flood. You boil the water
to nothing, forget the pen in the drawer
of spoons, nag, Where is time? When does it return?
I’m sick of raking inconsolable beaches.
I drive; you run the lights, almost killing me.
Concerts, movies, you have to cry in public
while I sit damp, red. Or, worse, you wake me:
Look: the cracks conspiring with the darkness.
He had to be your father drifting out.
We’d jump, call him from a dune. Your father
pretending not to hear. You hoarder of
lost words, midwife to my empty stares. Words
are socks on hands. Love’s the cypress that stands
in the swamp, waving gray limb-loads of moss.
No use seeking you. Walking this hall, like a ghost
you walk some other. I leave you notes crammed
in the margins and live for the reply
from your vast, dim, disappearing room somewhere
near mine: A lovely leaking ceiling is
the most a life can be; soul that shanty
on the sand where the Gulf sometimes comes up
to spit and chew
room I’ve glimpsed in dreams.